Obsession

What can I do with my obsession
With the things I cannot see

Is there madness in my being
Is it the wind that moves the trees

Sometimes You're further than the moon
Sometimes You're closer than my skin

And You surround me like a winter fog
You've come and burned me with a kiss

And my heart burns for You
And my heart burns...for You

And I'm so filthy with my sin
I carry pride like a disease

You know I'm stubborn, Lord, and I'm longing to be close
Your burn me deeper than I know

And I feel lonely without hope
And I feel desperate
Without vision

You wrap around me like a winter coat
You come and free me like a bird

And my heart burns for You
And my heart burns...for You.

This song was a definition for me when I was a teenager.

A couple of weeks ago I was listening to a live version of this song from an album I bought 14 years ago.

Music has a way of bringing back memories and emotions.

That night when I heard the cry of my teenage heart again I felt all the emotion of my desperation for Jesus and remembered all the pain I had in those long ago days.

The Holy Spirit begin to speak to me a out my lack of desperation.

When I was a lost and fearful teenager it was easy to see my need for a savior and to passionately run to him as my only solice from the cruel world.

As I have grown in my faith I have lost some of my understanding that I am still a man in great need of a savior and as my life moves forward my reliance on my Jesus should increase.

I now am responsible for my wife and two children God has given me a specific call and church that I have a part in leading.

My need for a savior has not lessened but rather it has increased. I like you need to be desperate for Jesus.

This week my challange is to reconnect to our desperation for Jesus and if you have never had a desperation to realise your great need for Jesus in your life.